Monday, February 26, 2007

The Real Value of Medical Intuition

Many years ago a medical intuitive (a psychic who can intuit the cause of medical problems) saved my life.

I was sick with symptoms that my doctors couldn't unravel -- heart palpitations, high anxiety, spaciness and a physical hunger that couldn't be filled. I felt like I was starving all the time, was gaining enormous amounts of weight and had no energy at all. I couldn't function and each day it got worse. I thought, perhaps, that I had diabetes—hypoglycemia runs in my family and the symptoms seemed to mimic that. But medical tests found nothing wrong and had nothing to offer except the suggestion that maybe it was all in my head.

They were wrong. . . . and, on another level, completely accurate.

A medical intuitive suggested I might have multiple food allergies -- in particular to wheat and dairy. Easy enough to test...I just gave up my favorite foods for a week (damn!) and in no time I was back to normal. That's the purely physical part that my doctors never even thought to look into and what most people think a medical intuitive diagnosis is all about.

But that's really just the beginning: How did I wind up with multiple "allergies" in the first place? I wasn't born that way! And how could I heal myself of this condition? Does it make sense that God would create a world where people become allergic to their favorite foods and then have to live the rest of their lives afraid of what's in everything they eat?

I wasn't willing to accept that!

The real value in a medical intuitive consultation is in examining how our emotions, beliefs and spiritual lessons manifest in physical form. Remember "The Law of Attraction" and the really basic information contained about that process in "The Secret"? What "The Secret" forgot to mention is that we don't just manifest physical representations of what we focus on in our outer lives—we manifest it in our bodies as well.

And that's the rub. Most of what we manifest in physical form on a daily basis is mostly unconscious and symbolic. We don't think "I have an allergy to wheat and dairy" and develop an allergy to wheat and dairy. We think "I don't have what I need—I'm STARVING for love, affection, money, homeland security, whatever it happens to be" and then we manifest symptoms that mimic that.

Dairy—mother's milk, sustenance, mama holding me, mama loving me. A baby's primitive associations with mother's love stay with us the rest of our lives. If we develop a chronic pattern of feeling deprived of love and physical affection such as a mother provides long enough at any time in our lives this can sometimes manifest as an "allergic reaction" to dairy. A sensitivity really—we tell ourselves we "can't get what we need" in this area of our lives and the body acts out the message by refusing to adequately digest the physical substance associated with that "request." "I can't get enough mama love in my life" translates to "I can't digest milk."

Same thing with wheat. We think "I've got to get me some 'bread'" when we mean money in this culture. We talk about "breaking bread" when we talk about feeding ourselves, especially in regards to home life and community. We break bread in the security of our homes. In this country we take that symbolism even further. The "bread bowl" of this country—the Midwest—is also known as the "heart land." Homeland security, "amber waves of grain," all the same thing--symbolically speaking. When we have a lot of insecurity about our home life throughout our lives—if our bodies use the symbology I've just mentioned—a wheat allergy can become the result.

Does this come across as crazy? It did to me when I first heard it. But by the time I was dealing with these allergies I had seen too much evidence for its validity to reject the possibility out of hand. For example, a friend came over and her face had broken out in a rash and she didn't know why. I asked her what was going on in her life and she said "I'm expecting to have this big confrontation with my boss and I just CAN'T FACE IT!" I met another person who had just had a heart attack. Her husband had died only a week before and, to put it mildly, she was completely "heartbroken."

And in my own life, I KNEW the wheat and dairy diagnosis made sense. Was I feeling bereft of affection, financial and homeland security? Oh yeah! I was just in the process of getting divorced, I knew my current home life was endangered, I was afraid that I couldn't make it on the divorce settlement we agreed upon, and I was feeling lonely and scared and sad. And this set of feelings connected to childhood issues I experienced throughout my life. I, basically, just wanted a mama to hold me, take care of me, and make it all right and, as an adult, really didn't expect that I could have that. Wheat and dairy, nurturance and homeland security were all lacking at the same time.

I worked on it with energy healing and emotional counseling—using a similar approach to what Paul and I use today—and step by step all the physical sensitivities went away.

I didn't have to "believe" in anything to have the process work. But I did have to take my intention to heal seriously enough to give the process a fair trial. I started with one of the allergies the psychic I had consulted said was "minor"—an allergy to corn. It worked. I tried it again (cat allergy, this time). It worked again. I did the process for a friend. It worked for him! Some of the sensitivities went away in a weekend. The cat allergy was simple enough to address. It had started VERY recently and was easily traced to a specific situation where cats were being allowed to come between me and my ex-husband in bed. Not hard to read the symbolism and see the distress inherent there, given the divorce that came soon after!

The dairy allergy cleared out in about a week with several sessions addressing multiple layers of feeling deprived over time. The wheat allergy, however, hung on for months and took multiple sessions with lots of twists and turns. Way too much to dive into thoroughly here but, suffice it to say, it went back to early childhood, issues related to my father and all sorts of childhood associations I had with leaving the current male figure under my roof. I'd heal the wheat sensitivity and then recreate it the very next day. I still manifest symptoms on occasion but now I see the distressed belief process that leads to this condition clearly and can address it through manifesting a more positive and, therefore, more powerful set of beliefs in just a minute or two. It's recognition of the pattern and choosing another thought. That's it. You can heal yourself just like that... once you get the hang of it.

That's the true value of a medical intuitive reading. It doesn't just address the physical aspects of your distress. It looks at everything. . . and that allows it to be addressed appropriately from all angles, medical, nutritional, psychological and spiritual.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

More on Predictions of Death

Many many years ago I used to listen to a radio psychic I respected a lot who, one day, spent part of his show talking about ethics and why he would NEVER tell anyone about bad things happening in their futures, especially never predicting about their deaths. The VERY NEXT WEEK a man called in the very late stages of terminal cancer. His voice was weak, he was tired, but he didn't know if he should give up fighting. He had tried so many cancer treatments already but his friends and family so wanted him alive—and he wished he could be, too— that it was hard to refuse further treatment. He wanted to know if it was worthwhile to keep on trying.

The psychic took a deep breath and was quiet for a long time while he listened for internal guidance to tell him what to say. Finally, obviously in anguish and with his voice cracking as he spoke, he quietly told the man that he should spend his days exactly as he wished—that the MOST important thing was to get his affairs in order, to enjoy the time he had left and say whatever last things he most wanted to say to his loved ones. The psychic didn't want to give this man a death sentence, he didn't want to say "give up", but he saw that this man was already dying. I'm sure the psychic anguished over this one for a long time.

When I first started experimenting with doing psychic consultations, years ago before meeting Paul, I also thought I ought to follow this radio psychic's ethical code—especially when it came to matters of death. So.... the very first three people I meet wanted help with matters related to their deaths. The very first client ONLY wanted to know about his death and I refused over and over, giving all the reasons the radio psychic used. Finally he bursts out with the reason for his concern—he had received a psychic reading that had predicted his life ending by a certain age and that age was fast approaching! He wanted to know if it was true because if he had very little time left he didn't want to spend it working hard on his business, he wanted to have more fun. My guides and I fought. I didn't want to tell him when or if he was going to die any time soon but they said he didn't have that long to "live." Finally, I said that he should live the way we all do—we all die and we all know that death could happen at ANY time. So why not work towards his goals as if the future mattered but live for today as if it was his last day on earth, to enjoy the paradox. To be here now AND enjoy the process of creating something he really wanted to see happen whether he lived to see it to completion or not.

If you believed your time on earth was potentially meant to be shorter than average what would that mean? I've been living with that guidance lately—that someone I care about will die at a younger than average age. Real? Metaphorical? A reflection of my own fears? I won't know, potentially, for a long long time. Hard to hold the balance. To feel happy knowing disaster is possibly right around the corner. That's how the obsessive mind tends to fool itself into a cycle of focusing on worry and fear. What if it all ends tomorrow? What if this wonderful life I've created all falls apart? What if I don't have everything I want and never have a chance to have it?

Oh please! What if THIS time in my life has the potential to be the most happy I've ever experienced? Do I really want to fool myself into missing the opportunity to enjoy the time I have now?

Be here now. I think that's the message predictions of death all have in common. Use the time you have as if you don't have much time left. Don't say "someday, I'll get around to..." Say "I care enough about this thing I want to create to begin it now." Say your "I love you"s every chance you get. Take time to enjoy the sunset, a good dinner, a walk in the park, to hold a loved one's hand, to cherish the day. Do what you most want and need to do to feel satisfied that both your present and future dreams are well in hand. You'll live your life to the fullest and never regret how you spent your time.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Thoughts and Feelings about Manifestation

Two conflicting current teachings:

1) The popular one, currently touted by "The Secret" and many others, is to manipulate the future by purposely visualizing what you want to create, imbuing that desire with love and joy and gratefulness, etc, etc., and allowing yourself to receive it.

2) Allow God to make choices for our highest interest, surrendering to the process, stop manipulating and trying to control things. In other words: let go and let God.

How does one resolve this conflict?

My guides say: There is no conflict here. What part of saying what you want conflicts with letting God do the rest?

Sometimes I'm afraid of what "the highest good" is going to turn out to be and afraid to ask for what I want. You know the old saying "Be careful what you wish for?" I've learned that sometimes what I've wished for has come with harder lessons attached than I expected.

I once wished my house mate would appreciate my presence more and even visualized him saying how thankful he was that I was around. So be it. A few days later I wound up taking him to the emergency room twice. He was alright, just needed fluids and a little bed rest, and while I was getting him more comfortable back in his own room he said—word for word— what I had wished I'd hear coming out of mouth.

I was amazed —and horrified. I didn't intend for my wish to bring anybody harm, even temporarily. The scientist would say I didn't harm anybody. It was just a coincidence. But I live with so many "coincidences" every day I no longer feel that way.

How does a person who manifests things regularly and miraculously live with the consequences of that, especially in light of the example above?

My guides say: Of course, that's hard. It hurts when somebody appears to suffer because of a dear wish of our own. Add the lines to your intentions that "wishes be granted with harm to none."

What about wishes that come true and wind up being something I wished I never wished for, the ones that come with hard lessons because the wish itself was centered in fear or greed or a vastly limited perspective? Those things usually can't be anticipated in advance or they wouldn't be wished for in the first place.

My guides say: You need to listen to your hearts more. What do you most desire? Freedom from want or pain? It's not the shiny new automobile—it's transportation. It's not the specific lampshade–it's directed light. I want "light" shone on a situation is way different from focusing on the specific way that light gets shone. You CAN decide I want this specific thing to occur in this specific way but you'll wait forever while the universe is arranging it unless you add the tag line "or something a lot like this or even better."

I had a desire for a new boyfriend that took 8 years to manifest and each time I asked about it my guides would say "he's coming soon."

Guides: He couldn't manifest so soon because you had plans he would have interfered with, he wasn't ready, you weren't ready. And you didn't want just ANY boyfriend—you had a long laundry list this guy was to possess. You sometimes HAVE to wait.

Yeah, I didn't want to waste my time and heart with someone who wasn't right. I didn't like dating enough to do that. I tried a few dates with people I met online and decided I'd rather be using my free time writing a book, designing a tarot deck, going to my dance and marimba classes, and hanging out with my current friends. I chose a very specific way that meeting this guy was supposed to happen—in the course of doing activities I'd be doing anyway—not dating. And that's what happened.

I just asked my guides if there was something else they wanted to add.

They said: You're so hard on yourself. You're not to blame for the sun shining or going behind a cloud. If it's not in the highest service of mankind it won't happen. Sometimes things from your human perspective "happen" that appear to be "bad". That's not how it is from "on high". Everything has a purpose and a place from the perspective of guiding human evolution. EVERYTHING.

It's not in your power, in any one person's power, to run the whole show. You can't manipulate others to do your bidding unless they choose that for themselves on some level. You can't force a man to change his daily activities, get sick and need medical care on your behalf. He made his own choices. You happened to be there at the right time and place to allow the change you BOTH needed to happen.

You also tend to, by rote but also belief, intend that the best outcome—the highest good for all concerned— be served. Sometimes that means that experiences you don't appear to deserve have exactly the consequences you desire. And then you take your evolution further and say "I want to enjoy this manifestation process—I don't just want this specific outcome, I want the process of it manifesting to not just be the "best for all concerned" in the highest sense but in the delightfully specific human sense as well." Respecting YOURSELF as a higher being with choice to play in the PROCESS is part of the plan for your growth as beings on the planet as well. "Let's have fun together! Let's make this a joyride every step of the way! I want to see my dreams manifest like gang-busters!" . . . and then you'll learn from that.

Hmm, hmmm. For some reason I hesitate to think we'll necessarily like the immediate results of that either.

Not completely.

There's more to learn on the manifestation path.

Recently, I had the realization that if my practice with Paul wound up just being about telling people to focus on sweetness and light and gratefulness and just on getting what each individual wanted in the same way all the time—if we were going to be parroting and working with "The Secret" type material over and over again—I was going to be really, really bored and unsatisfied. Eventually. I would like to see some people, including ourselves, succeed at changing some very specific things—like our incomes, our health and prosperity. But there's another voice saying "Is that all there is—getting things me and my friends want?"

I'm a little afraid of the implications this line of thinking may be taking me. . . do we manifest wars to ward off boredom?

No, it's usually about "stuff"—personal freedom, responsibilities, happiness, the pursuit of the American way. Whatever it is, it's about stuff. I see you and your family members struggling to manifest material goods for the highest good. You need to TRUST the process before manifesting the belief you will be able to hold back the tides of change and make things improve once and for all for ALL beings on the planet. (This one, at this time, at least.) The game never stops being played. WE LOVE YOU! STOP WORRYING AND ENJOY THE RIDE/BATTLE/PLAY DATES and such. It's all the same game playing device in place. You set things in place, recognize the consequences of your actions, and use the same manifestation process to choose a happier set of parameters. It's the way things get done on a grander scale as well as in personal day-to-day living. Be prepared for a change in the American way. It becomes possible to manifest a much larger domain of thought and —from "up here" that's the way the game needs to unfold. We start you off manifesting the small stuff and work up gradually to manifesting change in the world around.

We've been asking for that.

You've been demanding it. So now it's yours.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Do You Really Need to Know the Future?

Early in our practice dire predictions of the future our clients could do nothing to prevent came up all the time. It was upsetting. I didn't want to tell people these things but we had set the intention that only what was in the highest benefit for all concerned would occur.

In one case, we received almost instant feedback that knowing ahead of time what was coming—and being given advice on how to handle it well—was of enormous importance to the person who received it. She thanked us for the heads up because when the event that was predicted happened she was able to fly into action well-prepared and handled it with more aplomb.

The next person we met with was given information about her death. Again, I was horrified but she was also given a lot of additional guidance to really go for what she wanted in the time she had left and not to hold back at all. She later let us know that she wasn't sure whether giving people this kind of information was beneficial or not. She was still processing the session weeks later and still not sure—at the time—whether to trust it or not.

The third person was furious and let us know in no uncertain terms that she believed that the gift we believed we were offering at the time was despicable.

The Hippocratic oath says to the physician to "do no harm." But what feels harmful to one person feels beneficial to another. How do you decide?

We decided to ask that not only should the sessions we do be in the service of the highest benefit for all concerned but that they be loving and kind and only as much as our clients could integrate at the current time. Today we receive dire predictions of the future far less often.

In my own life I went through a period when I was obsessed with the future. I was afraid of what was coming and wanted to "be prepared." I got insanely good at predicting future events. Frequently, it helped me take the event in stride when it occurred. Sometimes it helped me change things so I could prevent or alter the course of events. And sometimes it made me obsess all the more with no benefit whatsoever.

Today I know that there are things we can do about future events and things we're better off not trying to control. For one thing, the future is not set in cement. Not only can we change our minds about choices we wish to make, myriads of other people can, too. We touch millions of people through our activity everyday and even the most insignificant choices in one person's life can alter the course of events in someone else's life in surprisingly significant ways.

Furthermore, obsession with future events is a sure sign that you're living in fear. Far better to focus on the times you have received exactly what you've needed when you needed it most, to expect the best, and to know deep down that you have and will have all the resources you could possibly require. By focusing on the gifts you have received and on how much you loved getting them you're saying "I'm grateful! Thank you! " and you'll attract more and more of what you love into your life. Then you don't have to guess at what's coming next. You'll be an active participant in making it happen.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

The Angels Among Us

Sometimes people get so enamored of the help and healing possible when we turn our attention to "the other side" that we forget that we're ALL aspects of God in human form. We're all angels to another person in some way or another.

The deepest, most life-transforming guidance, for me, hasn't always come from "angels on high." God provides what we need everyday—most frequently through the most mundane means possible.

My guides are fond of saying "You are not alone." And, quite frequently, Paul and I find that when we need it most an "angel in the flesh" will come to tell us exactly what we need.

The other day my dear friend and very down-to-earth engineer ex-husband came to Paul and me and said "I feel it's very important to tell you something" and then proceeded to help us in the precise way we needed at that particular time.

The day I got married to John an angel in the flesh intervened in a most significant way. I was shaking in my boots and feeling queasy and sick, waiting in the parking lot of a supermarket in Vermont while John was inside getting last minute items we needed for our very homemade wedding. I was getting cold feet and literally thought I wouldn't be able to make it through the ceremony that was very close at hand. A woman who looked EXACTLY like my beloved massage therapist back in Massachusetts came up to me and asked if anything was wrong. I explained what was going on and she said "Everything is going to be alright." If it had come across as a placating remark "Dear, dear, everything is going to be alright" I wouldn't have felt guided from on high. Instead she said it with conviction, looking directly into my eyes as if she really knew...and I settled right down.

Everything did not go perfectly as planned that day. It rained so the romantic outdoors wedding we hoped for moved into the tent we rented just in case. And it was so cold, dark and gloomy in there that we wound up moving inside the barn next door. There wasn't even enough room in there for people to gather around in a circle as we hoped but everyone pulled together to make it all work out. We had the sweetest wedding ceremony and have wedding pictures of our guests singing to us from the haylofts. It was a special day and, even though 20 years later we're now divorced, the wedding day was great and everything—including the relationship (we're still great friends)— did turn out alright.

More recently, Paul and I have been wishing we could meet someone doing similar work to what we do who is succeeding at making a living from it. Our closest role models have nest eggs set aside, husbands who support them, or day jobs doing entirely different work on the side. And maybe we will, too, but we're still finding our way and don't know quite what to expect.

A friend sent us a link to a video on youtube about a guy who held up a sign to passers-by offering free hugs. Here's the link: . It was so sweet and inspiring. Just the lift we needed...but then it went several steps further. Paul went to the website of the person who posted this video and felt guided to watch one of the videos people posted to this site thanking the producer for his work. The one he picked was done by a woman who said she made her living as an "angel communicator." It was very sincere and sweet but there was no internet link to her website. So Paul tracked her down and discovered to his surprise that not only did she have a sweet, sincere yet very professional-seeming website, she had a notice saying she was booked with clients several months ahead.

Her name is Ann Albers ( and, like us, she provides spiritual guidance and healing for people using input from her angels and guides. Paul wrote to her "How did you come to be so successful at that?" and she wrote a long supportive and detailed letter back. Apparently she started the same way we have--relatively unknown and not knowing how to start out. She followed her angels' advice--that she be grateful for the opportunity to do this work she loved, that she send out the intention that the people who she could best serve find her, and that she was willing to receive for sharing her love and support. And people came and found her loving self so infectious they recommended her to other people and kept coming back.

Just what we asked for. And just what we needed to hear.