Case in point: Paul and I do most of our spiritual counseling sessions by phone or Skype video but tomorrow we have an in-person session at our house. Which means we are cleaning house! Or one of us is. The Libra in charge (partially) is taking a blog-writing break because she is recovering from severe anemia and gets tired easily. Although I will admit that my Libran tendency to shirk housework and be lazy isn't too unhappy about having a good excuse right now. To my credit, I cleaned up MY mess before taking a break. And, honestly, my mess was the worst this time around.
You see, like always, I'm constantly juggling several things at once: art, business, school, day job work. And all of those things, plus the junk (or maybe not junk) mail I receive every day generates paper. And each piece of paper represents the most dreaded thing to a Libra of all -- a decision to be made. Keep or throw away? And if I keep it where will I put it where I will be able to find it again? And if I don't have a ready-made place to put it, there's another set of decisions to be made: should it be put in a file folder and put in a filing cabinet? Where are the file folders now? Should information about my student loans be filed under "school" or "finances"? Should this piece of paper I actually might need to take action on be filed at all? (Probably not.) And, oh yeah, the filing cabinet... that has never found a suitable place to live so it's in the storage room with a crazy amount of stuff -- some of which needs to be filed -- sitting on top!
So that is why the living room gets messed up in the first place. "I don't want to make a decision about this right now," I think. "I'll just make a nice neat pile right here on the edge of the coffee table to remind me to do it later." "Oh wait, this piece of paper will surely get lost if I put it in with these other pieces of paper. I'll start a second pile." And then a third. And then I think "I'll just lay this fourth pile crossways over the first two piles to 'keep them separated.' Yeah, that'll work."
Until the time comes when we have an in-person session. (Luckily, not too many weeks go by before that happens!) So I finally sit down and go through all the items I deferred judgment on one by one.
Yippee! This whole stack is now obsolete! Yay! They don't have to be filed at all and no action has to be taken except to throw it all away. See! My Libran approach to organization WORKS. Virgos are tearing their hair out right now. Because I've just received my version of positive reinforcement for a behavior that doesn't work at all! In true Libran fashion I live with a big mess then rush around with Paul making it perfectly clean whenever someone comes to visit. There is not a speck of the previous mess to be seen in the living room now. It is SO nice! Librans actually LIKE things neat and tidy and beautiful. I always say I'm going to turn over a new leaf and keep it that way and actually do keep it that way for days, sometimes weeks or even a month at a time. Until the time comes -- and it only take one time -- when I don't know what to do right away with something that comes into the house when I'm feeling tired or overwhelmed.
I have five new flower essence sprays in my Mama Love shop for pets (that can be used by people, too)!
Happier Indoor Living
This is a great formula for pets who used to have access to the outside but no longer do. Did you change your mind about allowing your cat outside? Or move to an upstairs apartment? A neighborhood with a too busy street? Or does your pet have an injury or illness that requires being kept inside? Whatever the reason, if your pet is acting listless and bored, perhaps depressed because of their confinement, give this formula a try!
Recovering from Grief and Loss
Have you adopted a pet who was abandoned or given away or left behind after the death of their person? This formula is designed to help heal broken-heartedness, fear and grief, and to have courage when it feels like all is lost. And yes, if this sounds like something you can use for yourself, please do! Getting Along with Others Okay, you brought home a new playmate for your "lonely" cat or dog and -- oops! -- all hell has broken loose! Don't fear. They just a need a little help with their rampant insecurity. And perhaps other family members need help with this transition, too! Use this one together or at least on the unhappy furry ones. Healthy Bonding More new homing blues? Imagine being in a brand new home you had no choice about, with new people, new surroundings, and no understanding about what is occurring. Some pets adjust quickly but many need a little help. If your newest furry family member runs or cowers when you try to pet them give this one a try! Healing Aggression it occurs to me as I'm writing this blog post that every formula I've just introduced is especially applicable for pets you just brought home or have moved into a new situation with. If your pet is reacting aggressively there's usually a reason. First check with your vet -- they could be sick or in pain. But if fright, overwhelm and feeling like they need to over-aggressively defend their space is part of the issue this formula might help. Animal shelters or pet shops as well as veterinarian clinics might consider sending new pet owners home with formulas like these. Contact me to learn about buying my products wholesale.
So here's the experiment: in 48 hours, using nothing but the power of one's thoughts, magnetize something you want into your life. The idea was to focus on some simple thing that you'd like, for example, theater tickets or flowers from a significant other, and write down what happens. The theory to be explored was "whatever you focus on expands." Unfortunately, I did not choose an insignificant thing. I've been having a challenge with excessive bleeding related to menopause and I wanted it to STOP! The weird thing is that it had been starting to slow down when I made the choice to visualize an end to the bleeding (a clean menstrual pad) but within 48 hours it was way way worse.
Now I say this was not a simple choice because my worries and fears about it not stopping are so bound up with it. Not only that, there is a stress / hormone component which I am WELL aware of. Unfortunately, I didn't realize to what extent I was focussing on the very thing that has been the trigger for the bleeding. Yes, I imagined clean underwear but I also spent far too much time during the day fretting about my day job and whether I could get a better source of income to replace it by Christmas (my desired deadline) and fretting about money in general... exactly the opposite of what this experiment is all about! I forgot that the bleeding starts during the summer when my hours get cut and I start to dip into my savings to pay the rent. I knew that frustration and discouragement was a big part of the picture but I forgot.
So I focussed a bit too much on exactly the opposite of what I want to increase. And the bleeding became worse and worse.
In the middle of the night I searched for some sort of healing intent to take the place of whatever I had been doing. I sent long distance Reiki to healing whatever thought patterns might be involved in increasing the flow and fell asleep. When I woke up my first thought was "I can't afford to bleed to death! I better enjoy the time I have on this earth and pay attention to what I'm grateful for!" So I did, like an earnest prayer, start to recite to myself everything I was grateful for: my partner Paul, my fully paid for air conditioned apartment, enough money coming from student loans to be able to work fewer hours without fear, enough money in the bank, the fact that I have a day job when so many others have been having a hard time finding one, the fact that I like the people I work with, the fact that there are times I actually enjoy the work, etc., etc. The bleeding slowed down and started back up throughout the day but I also KNOW my sense of gratefulness ebbed and flowed throughout the day. As I write this I realize I stopped feeling grateful not long before I felt so tired I needed to take a nap. And then I was pissed that I needed a nap. And that was precisely the time when the bleeding increased again.
The stop bleeding experiment isn't done yet. Changing a long term habit of focussing on what's wrong instead of on the far more abundant things going right takes practice. I'm also QUITE aware people reading this blog post may think I'm nuts for boiling down a significant physical problem to emotional / mental patterns. But I have healed myself by working through and changing mental patterns numerous times before and feel inspired to continue. I will add an update to this post within the next 48 hours.
I'm reading a book about manifestation lately ( E-Squared: Nine Do-It-Yourself Energy Experiments That Prove Your Thoughts Create Your Reality
). You know, "The Secret", Abraham Hicks, the believe-you-can-create-anything-and-it-is-so belief system? Paul and I see this work in our favor so often in many aspects of our lives that we can't ignore it but we also can't help but notice that there are times (or perhaps mindsets) that interfere with the best of these kind of intentions! I'm being a bit facetious but I'll get to that in a minute.
Anyway, the book is designed to set up a series of experiments where you test for yourself whether these theories actually work and record the results. I LOVE doing experiments. You'd be surprised how into the scientific method this spiritual counselor/healer/artist type can be! I didn't make and sell flower essence products until I had experimented and recorded the results multiple times on myself and that wasn't good enough until I experimented on my cat. You know, maybe with me the good results were just a placebo effect but the cat didn't know what I was doing so that's when I decided it actually worked. But I still didn't sell any of my formulas until I tested them on my co-workers at the time and anyone else game to participate. Some formulas didn't pass muster—I don't sell those. But I do sell the rest. You know where to find those by now, don't you?
I've only done three experiments so far with sometimes okay, sometimes terrible, sometimes amazing results. A few experiments I did more than once so even though I haven't worked my way even halfway through the book I'm already starting to wonder about certain factors that may come into play.
For example, how much you care about the results: does that enhance manifestation? Well, perhaps yes. In the book I was to do an experiment where I notice how deciding to notice something made me notice that very thing much more. The example offered was to manifest noticing of beige cars. Are you kidding me? Do you know how many beige cars there are on the road? My car is greyish-beige. I've probably accumulated many hours of searching for it in parking lots because there are so many just like it anywhere I go. Hell no, I'm not doing this experiment -- Manifestation Project FAIL.
So, their second example was yellow butterflies and purple feathers. Oh dear God, there are yellow and black swallowtail butterflies in the area right now so, big deal, sure I'll see more of them. . . if I venture outside the apartment in 95ºF temperatures and up. And purple feathers? I don't care about purple feathers but, okay, I'll notice if I see any yellow butterflies and purple feathers when I go to school or by mistake on the internet or whatever. I'm not expecting much here. But did I mention that I don't care?
What I do care about, though, is what I've been going back to school to learn more about: digital photography manipulation and multimedia, particularly website design. And I do care about what will come of going back to school. So school-related things are what's capturing my attention. And what comes into my email inbox unbidden? Articles by Seth Godin about what makes for good website design. And what comes unbidden into my Facebook feed? Really cool links to digital photography featuring some awesome photo manipulation. And, subsequently, a conversation with Paul about a person on his Facebook list who does photo manipulation and, subsequently, me deciding to visit her website. And what do I find there without very much looking? Images with yellow butterflies, here and here and here and here and a few other places, too, but I can't find them right now. I haven't found any purple feathers, though, but there is a billboard on the way to school for Feather Falls Casino that features a gold feather on a purple background. Does that count?
So what else has come about? Well, the very first experiment was to ask the universe for a surprise, something you would not expect and too significant to pass off as mere coincidence. The time limit was 48 hours but the surprise could manifest instantly. The idea was to record what happened in 48 hours. In 24 hours I had a weird repeating dream that kept waking me up about a link in my email inbox that I needed to know about, but in the dream when I didn't open it right away the link disappeared. This was disturbing because when I have repeating dreams they always have a message for me. I made sure to open my email right away when I finally got up that morning and, sure enough, there was an email from the Feds about what was awarded to me as a student loan and in the email in BOLD CAPITALIZED TYPE was a notice to check the link provided right away because the information was only going to be available for a short time! Here's the surprise: Butte College had told me I was eligible for less of a student loan than I really needed and had said I might get less than that. I was fretting about this because I hate the idea of being worried about paying bills and forced to work more hours than is healthy while trying to keep up with school assignments. I did ask for more on Paul's recommendation but I really did not expect any more than the full amount they said was the most they'd authorize. I was wrong. The surprise was that I did get more -- exactly the amount I feel like I need, maybe with a little wiggle room besides. (This is good because I wound up dropping one of my classes so I don't really know if I'll get the full amount after all... but, like I said, there was wiggle room!) I'd call that an excellent manifestation.
Here's the most recent one and an interesting development besides. Since our sweet cat Chloe died Paul and I have been deciding about when to get another pet or maybe more than one. We both immediately assumed we'd get more cats but for some reason small lap dogs have been capturing my attention. When Paul and I were in Arizona I fell in love with a tiny Maltese or Maltese mix who was wandering the streets away from home. She was SO friendly and cute and affectionate. When I bent over to pet her she leaped into my arms and immediately snuggled in as if to stay! We had a nice adventure discovering where the dog lived and brought her back only to discover many months later that her owner was an elderly woman with severe dementia who moved away and left the dog in the care of other people. Those people neglected and perhaps abused her. We met the dog on the same road, filthy and frightened. She ran from us when we bent to pet her and looked thin and horrific. I haven't been able to get that sweet creature out of my mind ever since.
If I ever get a dog that is the kind of dog I think I'd want. I was thinking about that on my day job one day recently and immediately in walked a man with two Maltipoos (an adorable cross between a Maltese and a toy poodle). He told me a lot about caring for them but highly recommended I get two or raise one with a cat because they hate to be left alone and having an animal companion helps quite a bit. This weekend the urge to find a new pet came up again so I looked on Craigslist. I didn't expect to find a Maltese or a Maltese mix but I not only found one, I found someone giving away two who had to be adopted together. They were Morkies (a Maltese and Yorkshire terrier mix) and they looked exactly like the little dog in Arizona.
But this is where "manifestation" gets interesting. Did I manifest my heart's delight? On the surface I did and I was very excited to tell Paul about it when he got up in the morning. But something didn't feel quite right. Why would these people give away two sweet dogs they supposedly had had for five years? Paul said maybe they had a behavior problem. So we talked about our requirements. We have clients come to the house so our #1 requirement is a dog who will not bark and frighten our clients. We also need a pet who is easy to train (Morkies are not) and do not need a yard to poop in because we don't have one. We don't mind walking a pet -- in fact I look forward to it -- but a pet that needs to be let out several times a day can't easily work for us. I wrote to the pet owner and, indeed, there was a behavior problem. They do bark at anyone who comes in, have only been house-trained to using an enclosed yard, and have never been leash-trained or even trained to wear a collar at all. Not a good enough fit.
A near miss? Or a perfect hit based on the information I had when I put the manifestation game in play? I'm going to call it the second. . . but that leads to more manifestation concerns. The mighty sage Mic Jagger is famous for singing "You can't always get what you want, but you get what you need." hmmm. I think I would want a tiny Maltese or Maltese mix because of my experience with (and guilt about) the one I met in Arizona. But I need a pet that's more like a cat who can use a litter box and will never bark and doesn't need your undivided attention 24/7 like a Maltese would prefer, regardless of what I think. Sometimes you give a manifestation back. I have two really nice stools we manifested for free outside the apartment dumpster when I thought we'd be moving somewhere where they'd come in handy. But I have no good use for them anymore so I need to give them back to the dumpster goddess right now. Perhaps someone actually wanting to use the kitchen counter as a place to hang out around instead of as art studio space could actually use them! (I filled my overhanging counter area with a free dumpster goddess bookcase and filled it with art supplies instead.)
So that's a bit about how manifestation works. I'll be reporting on more of my manifestation experiments as time goes on.